♥ Thursday, September 25, 2008♥

now i have like next week (1 week) is a holiday before I go to work. My practicum took most of my time. How can I cram everything in one week? 4 assignments and school work in one week! How can this likely to happen??? My holiday is not what I have planned! I feel pissed off

and few nights ago I won a voucher from DJ Marilyn, and I cannot go bcoz I have practicum in the morning! Now ramadan the pilihan office only opens from 8.30 am until 1 pm. Man, its disturbing, troublesome and I felt bad bcoz DJ Marilyn is also my friend and she is also like a sister to me. The voucher is only valid until end of this month. I have to take a break next mon eventhough I have practicum. Bcoz I need to do my work! What annoys me is if I get blame for no reason! I need time bah, understand???

Don't u feel annoyed when u have to do your work and something interupts??? yeah, its annoying!

my donut-addict never STOPS!

♥ Wednesday, September 24, 2008♥

Wow...its like 1 1/2 weeks left then 4th term school starts...I haven't even prepared for my work stuffs yet, like doing flashcards, setting test paper, doing lesson plans, and preparing what am I going to teach for the topic. Now I am doing my supervised teaching practise in isb and today is my 1st day of the supervised teaching practise, I can tell today I really suck at it. I hope everything will turn out better and better each day~ I don't think its my fault too...Hmm...I must talk more but hard to get along with the children at isb lah...I can't understand why I can't get along with children but others will. I can't get along with some people as well...geees!

And its kind of mad because I can't concentrate on my assignments and school work because I am busy reading preschool related articles in order to give me ideas about what can I talk to children and how to set up activities when doing activities or playing with them. I tried, but its the children who always get away from me.

I really wanna get out of here...And its really annoying people keep telling me that we go everywhere is the same. You know what? They doesn't know what I mean. I mean I want to get out of here is because I have stay here for a long time and want to see the world more! Hen fan ah!

my donut-addict never STOPS!

♥ Sunday, September 21, 2008♥

I went out with one of my colleague to the salon. It was fun and I could feel that I was so happy this afternoon when my hair was being trimmed, treatment and washed haha...When my hair was being washed, I kept on laughing bcoz its ticklish lol.

Ah...my hair smells nice now and I looked more pretty than ever :P

My friend and I then went to eat out, and the foods are so delicious. We have a chitty chat and I learnt lots of things from her, thanks a lot! Was having fun hanging out with her~

I ate chicken bolognaise and chocolate milkshake. I spent lots of money today on my hair and food, but I don't mind...because I haven't come out for quite a while lol

Before (July 2008)

After (21/9/2008)

Chicken Bolognaise

my donut-addict never STOPS!

♥ Thursday, September 18, 2008♥

Assignments....job....practicum....

Too much things to handle...now is my holidays, so I can take advantage of it. But when I want to do it, i can't do it...its distracting...might as well I do my assignments during the early mornings, but how to do it, I will feel sleepy during the class. Have no idea what to do...too overloaded with stuffs

and the phone bill for last month was very high! was shocked to see the amount of the phone bill! Now is 17th sept, so far, I seldom make any phone calls overseas. When I call to my friends living locally, so far till today, I only talk 3-4 times for 1/2 hour or 1 hour. Why did I talk for too long and what did I talk about on the phone???

Now headache...how to do assignments? Half of the things the teacher or my friend explain to me I had forget. My mind really have got lots of things...

Just won a $10 top up card from DJ Izan...quite happy because I don't have to buy one...actually decide to buy later haha...because I thought I can't win from her show anymore.

I hope I can complete my assignments during my this holiday and I had maintain my control over using the phone...Now I receive more calls than calling someone, thats better :) Since I won't have to pay much hehe...

I got to complete my assignments and read the notes in the living room. Here got a radio and I can't concentrate. Tommorow I got to go for my practicum...sigh~ its ok but also have to encounter some of the problems...guess i am thinking to much huh? am I?

my donut-addict never STOPS!

♥ Thursday, September 11, 2008♥

Last night I called DJ Conia, she said I sound so cheerful. yay! Thanks Conia!!! Glad I doesn't sound kinda sad over the phone. My voice is like that bah....doesn't mean I am sad. I would speak louder ^_^ as when I speak louder, i tend to sound more cheerful and energetic lol

A few days ago on a sunday, I won a face shop voucher on Conia's show. It was amazing~ All right, when I collect the voucher, I will buy something from face shop, put on it and take lots of pics of me with the face shop products that I will buy. And then I will pass the photos to Conia :) As promised...hehe.

I slept at 10pm, was very tired. I opened my eyes at 2 am+ but go back to sleep again till 4 am and do some markings. So frustrated when it comes to marking as the students pass up their books without completing the pages. Either they simply do or they just copy, because when I mark, the answers are mostly the same with their seatmates.

Now I am tuning in to DJ Marilyn's info tracks. Her songs are good! Sadly I did not listen to her whole of info tracks. Probably tired after having a long day at work. Usually I can stay up late till 11 pm. This tues night I also missed out the compass show because I went to bed early. Well, I just rest my eyes, but when I open my eyes, oh my god I realized I missed out the show.
That time I woke up at 11 pm bcoz I got a phone call from Jean Kim, we talked till midnight haha...Then after we hung up, I do my work and listen to DJ Marilyn's info tracks while doing my work till 3.30 am. Her songs are sooooo soothing...makes me want to continue to tuning to her show and do my work haha...

my donut-addict never STOPS!

♥ Tuesday, September 9, 2008♥

Shalalalala
Happy I want to be happy
Its so nice to be happy
Everybody should be happy

Yeah...everybody should be happy!!!

Last night I was sooooo anxious to know who would be featuring nightscope. Guess who? Its one of my favourite DJ, Marilyn. She is back! You can't imagine how happy I feel...

When I reached her on the phone, she said she was expecting my phone call. how sweet of her ^_^ We were having fun talking on the phone. She is cute :) I requested A shoulder to cry on, superstar and Leaving on a jetplane, then she said its sad, and asked me can she play the song life as a flower by ace of base. Then I said ok. During my 2nd call, I thanked her for the song and she asked if I like the song. I said yup, I like the song very much. Then we talked and talked about whats our fav colour of the rose, and our work. I like DJ Marilyn. She plays good music and is very kind.

This morning, I went for the practicum half day, things went ok for me...its juz that I need to talk more...I guess...am too quiet bcoz I have no idea when should I talk, and when I talk. Maybe it takes time. Feeling a bit upset that I couldn't attend my class in ISB today, missed my friends there very much. Bcoz I have something else to do. Worse of all, I haven't donw my assignments yet...Oh my god...better finish it this weekend...and the books, lots of books I haven't mark yet...ahhh...how can I mark the books when I am overloaded during the day? Its like as if I didn't do anything, but still, I feel that I am busy.

This coming holiday I must force myself to follow my schedule. Must prepare the ideas, pics, flashcards, everything that I need to use for teaching. Last term holiday I did not follow my schedule much, and I seemed to not prepared what I am going to teach. I would do it at the last minute. I procrastinate~

my donut-addict never STOPS!

♥ Friday, September 5, 2008♥

DJ MXXXXXX is not on radio today. Feel a bit empty and lonely. She is a soft gal, and she is funny, and gave lots of cool features on her show, thats why I like her :) I improved a lot from her. Its DJ SXXX on radio sitting in for MXXXXXX, his songs and show is great too, I miss MXXXXXX very much.

Every fri she gives great recipes. Ooops! I am supposed to try out the recipes that she gave, but till now I haven't try them. Man...I am busy busy busy and tired tired tired~

Anywayz I am looking forward to the holidays next next week when I can relax again. This time, I must force myself to follow the schedule. Must get my assignments done bcoz I had been procrastinating with my assignments since march this year! haiz~ tonnes of them.

I am looking forward for DJ MXXXXXX's show soon. I got to finish off my work now so that I won't have lots of stuffs to do for the next day.

my donut-addict never STOPS!

♥ Wednesday, September 3, 2008♥

I had a sudden lost of appetite every morning and am so desperate to travel to Singapore. Reason: Everyone seems to know me here in Brunei. Feeling stressed out and bored, a vacation is a suitable choice for me now.

A minute I was talking happily with my friends Shew Min and Jean Kim, after that I feel upset again. Upset of the things that is disturbing me...

One of the thing I felt that is pressuring me is, I haven't touch my assignments since March this year, feeling guilty about it, but what to do? I am working and studying part time. i can't kill 2 birds with 1 stone. Few nights ago, I called up DJ XXXX, he gave me his advice: Do assignments on the day that you are asked to do. Thanks...I will do it. Sometimes I am just lazy...as one of my bad habit is procrastinating.

I felt upset that I find it hard to befriends with someone eventhough I tried my best.

Why is it easy for me to befriend with some people? Hey, its weird... some people, u know, they talk to me first, then the next minute I was telling them my problem. Being friends with someone new, I am not supposed to tell my personal problems, but I tell. Well, thats bcoz I trusted them and have confidence with them. But whats happening with me? I keep on telling my new friends that I just have my problems.

I have no idea how to help myself. I did tried my best in talking more, but still lots of people doesn't want to talk to me. And some people like to gossip behind my back which are so damn rude. How can people simply judge people by their personal background and looks?

What can I say? I have nothing to say...I need to look more at communication tips

my donut-addict never STOPS!